Golden Wattle Stories, Dreams, and Poems

Yea I've felt happy today but  I just want purpose  I want meaning I want someone to live for or People to live for  I want inspiration I want to inspire people and Make them happy  And I danced today  Just because I felt happy I hadn't danced like that in many years I felt so much more lit up and inspired in posting my comments and updates online  So that was something  Felt inspired by my surroundings Incense on  Art scattered around my house  Window open  Letting the sunlight in and  Getting to see all the nature and trees outside. 

I'm always trying to be healthier  But I believe  Everyone should feel beautiful  And feel included   No matter what shape size or look  Why can't we just love eachother?  I hope for you to feel beautiful  I hope for you to feel included in this society  I believe in you even if others don't  And I care for you even if others don't 

Why do we look so different when we're old  From decades ago and our young self  And are we our old self  Or our young self?  Are we our appearances  Or are we always our young soul? Is that who we always are?  Instead of our young self dieing  And being replaced by an old self? I guess I'm just wondering  And thinking deeper  On who we truly are 

It seems to start from 30  From then on since 30  Every day we get just a little more sadder  Day by day  Losing our youth  Losing being at the start of our lives  And in the prime of our lives  So they say  Youthfulness is only in your 20s  So they say  Is that the way you feel my love?  It may be the way some of us feel

I'm trying so hard to survive  I'll make it though  In one way or another  I'll survive  Only just  I'm surviving  But only just  I'm taking everything one day at a time  Working out life  It's a big learning curve  To be honest I can't do it on my own  I need support   And I hope that  I'll keep hanging on 

I always feel like I'm not enough  Like I'm not functioning productively enough in life  That really gets to me emotionally  I feel tears inside my heart  I feel like crying  It's so common to be insensitive about this issue  About abilities  About what we should be doing with our lives  Well, what is right for me?  I'd like to know  What should I be doing?  Do I know what's best for me  And should I figure that out  Or are you thinking of a standard  From somewhere in society

You're more beautiful than beauty standards Beauty doesn't have to be one look  One shape or one size  Beauty doesn't have to be one age  Or if you're less or more wise  What's inside someone  And their personality  Could make them  The most beautiful person  In the world  On the outside  Why do people have to be  So rigid  With beauty standards  If they don't have to be  People can open their hearts to Eachother  People can see  The true beauty that exists In all of us  Because I believe that  You're more beautiful than beauty standards 

I didn't ask for this  The stress the strain  The disruption to my life  Disruption taking over my life  I didn't want this  Not having a forever home  That one place that Feels like yours forever  And feels like family and  Love and warmth  Why did my life and year  Have to get upended  I don't want to pack everything  As long as I have help and support  Maybe I'll be ok  Guess I'm a gypsy  Like I'm moving from  Place to place in a wagon  Guess I'll have to get used to  Rental stays  Averaging 1 to 5 years As long as I have enough time  To settle down for a long time  To breathe and relax  And live like I'm at home  Hopefully at least  For a few years or  Several years in each place  I guess I'll have to adapt  This is my new life  And my new reality  I've just got to find  The positives  In living in new places  The positives...

So many memories in this sharehouse  I'm moving from  Remember when I  First moved in  And called it the big brother house  100 morning cups of coffee out on the deck  20 times I danced Infront of the mirror 100s of times walking up and down the stairs  Walking 100s of times through the hallway  To my room at the end of the hallway  Seeing the pigeons out the window  On the powerline everyday  Just watching their antics And the rhythm of their life  So much art I made here  So much writing  So many dreams  Just living life  Finding the answers  Living in the moment every day  Living my best life and feeling blessed  That house with so many trees And birds around  I guess it will always be a part of me

Well These are our generations  These are our years  This is us  Around the year 2000 This is when we've come  This is what we've come for This is us  This is life  This is our home  Standing on history  Amongst the souls of millions before us  No we won't forget them  Our ancestors  We see their spirits living here  And hear their song  I guess we come from them  What do we make of this life  Of our existence  We're making our culture  Our music  Our communities  We're getting to know and  Meet our neighbours  Everyone else on earth I guess this is what we've come for  All the souls meant for this time  And meant to meet  And come to know eachother  We're finding meaning  And coming together  And making this work  All billions of us  In our house we call earth  Yea we came for eachother  Our souls  This time 

You're a thick juicy girl  Some guys like curves  So you're beautiful to them  And you can define what's beautiful  Keep your chin up  Eyes ahead  If you know your confidence  And know your worth  That's beautiful 

 Do you remember when  You used to come to my house You'd call for me through my window  We'd go dancing together  And to concerts together  And on nature walks and road trips  We'd listen to music together  And just hang out  We'd choose outfits together  And dress up together  Go into the city together  But no instead we're distant  And our lives are too far apart  But is that the way you feel about me too?  The same way I feel about you

I'm not wealthy or glamorous  Just down to earth  I don't wear much makeup  Yes I'm a simple girl  And that's ok  It's ok to be me  Hippieish boho and free I'm a natural girl  And I believe in being natural  And natural beauty  Just yourself  Just me 

Hey Big Girls   You're beautiful  No matter what they say  Hey big girls  I believe in you every day  Hey big girls  You've got it inside and out  Hey big girls  You shine like the morning sun  No matter what they say  Hey big girls  You fit in you belong  Hey big girls  You rule the world  Take it all

 Is my talent for art all for nothing?  Why was I born with a talent?  Guess I have to do something with it  Maybe I could touch someone with my gift  Maybe I could brighten someone's day  Maybe someone could find healing  Maybe I could make someone happy  Maybe my art could be like a sunflower to someone 

You used to give me flowers  Yes red roses were the first  I remember  Daisies, chrysanthemums, Lillies,  So many different types  You used to give me flowers  They'd always smell so fresh and beautiful  Put them in a vase  Then on the coffee table  To brighten up the whole day  Every day 

Starseed, starseed I see you there on earth  You've come from your home planet so far away  You don't fit into this world  But you came here with a purpose  So I guess you have to ask yourself  Why did you come here to earth?  What is your purpose?  And maybe you're not alone  Maybe there are lots of other starseeds on earth too 

Shawn you give my life so much meaning and purpose  Because you love me so much  You're always there for me with your presence  You always support me and have supported me for so long  You write heartfelt messages to us  You say you'll always stay  You say you'll never turn your back  Or go away  You show us how much you love us  You're not afraid to show it  You're not afraid to be a good person  And have a beautiful heart  You're truly just what the world needs  If only the world had more of your light and love, your heart and your care  Well the world should be yours  Hope that makes you see who you are  Our Shawnie  Our Shawna  Just this angel from Canada  May Shawn always be blessed

Yes I don't have my life together  Yes I don't have my life together  Yes I don't have my life together  Now will you stop judging me?  Will the world stop judging me?  You've just got to take care of your mental health  And do what's best for your mental health  The right people will accept you The right people will care about you just the way you are 

I just want someone I can rely on  Someone that's always there for me  Someone that's got my back  Someone I can always talk to and who listens to me Someone that tries to help me when things get hard  Someone that sees my emotions  Someone that really cares for me Someone that really sees me and how much I'm in need when times get hard Instead of just being so casual  Someone that tries to help me out  Cause I don't want to be alone  I don't want to be alone in life  And I don't want to do it alone  I don't want to have to do it all on my own  Please come to me now  Don't let me be alone  I hope I'll be ok with my friends and my support network  But just a partner or someone that had my back would mean the world